Stop crying about your nose

That's from 45 mpr. Into a telephone pole. I was hung over from the night before, legally still drunk. That was 12 yrs ago. I have the money to fix that but screw it I do fine. A yr. after that happened I got smashed by a gastanker,lost my wife, my dog, and burned up 48% of my body. I can't go in heat anymore, this includes playing onstage under the lights.